Thursday, July 12, 2007

One Day at A Time
Remember that show from the 70's? Fun show. That's not what this post is about.

It has been a really long week. How is it only Thursday? My dad has only been gone for three days. Somehow it seems longer ago that than. Time is really distorted right now. Casey's mom has been gone for 2 months yesterday. That seems like a lifetime ago in a totally different world, and in some ways, it was. Weird how such emotional experiences twist our sense of time.

I know I have been more physically and emotionally drained than I really ever remember. I guess I was pretty exhausted after the births of our children, partly because of a long labor (first child) and because both ended up in the NICU for a few days. That had such joy attached with it too, though, so was different. Generally by lunch time, I’ve about had it and just need a nap. Not that I get one, because I am at work (no paid bereavement leave), but I have gone outside to rest in the sun a bit each day. By the time we get the kids to bed at 7 or 7:30, I am so happy to pull the blinds, turn on the TV and veg out watching The Gilmore Girls with Casey. There is a certain comfort in watching this familiar show we've watched together for years. It's like hanging with old friends. Hey - we take comfort where we can!

4 comments:

yankeegirl said...

Dakota- I know it's hard. I'm sorry. One of the things I did after I lost my mom was to escape in a good book- not something fluffy, something I really had to think about. I chose the Master and Commander books- that the Russell Crowe movie was based on. They even have a lexicon you can buy for all the nautical terms and stuff. I know with school you probably don't have a lot of time for fun reading right now, but it was helpful for me.

patti_cake said...

You are right in "we take comfort wherever we can". I get a feeling of peace when I pull the blinds at night too.
I can't believe yo get no paid bereavement leave. That sucks!
Y'all enjoy your get-away to the MAX

Lynilu said...

You have a lot of adjusting to do. Don't let it get under your skin. You'll find that some times have just drug by so slowly and others will have zipped so fast you hardly remember, but that's just part of the process. And remember it is a *process.* You're not trying to reach a destination, just a smoother part of the process of life.

:)

Mieke said...

The Gilmore Girls! Now that's writing. I love that show.

I'm glad your evening was as cozy as it was.