Wednesday, August 24, 2011

I am still here

Just a quick post to say that I am still here - just terribly blogging-negligent. Since last night I have been in Newport, Oregon for an inspection (work). Days like this I feel very lucky-good job, good people, good pay, and I get to travel now and then. Not bad!

I will admit that it is strange and kind of sad being in places that the kids, Casey and I last visited together. No one ever goes into a marriage thinking it will end. Even though there was pain that we both experienced, there were many, many good times. For me, there have been a lot of whys and hows and how do I make sure to never repeat the mistakes I made? Nearly two years out, I think I have more clarity now that I just couldn't have back then. I hope we are all moving forward in ways healthy for the adults - and the kids. I hope I learned the lessons I was meant to learn.

Guess being at the ocean alone has made me contemplative. It is good to be in that space sometimes. Vicki is in Mongolia on business. I am hanging out, walking on the beach, enjoying the view and the sound of the ocean from my room. I wanted to post a picture but am having difficulty with that tonight.

Well, I am going to finish watching Interview with a Vampire on Netflix. Maybe I will get some pictures up soon!

1 comment:

Lynilu said...

Good to "hear" from you. :)

Ahh, hindsight. Truly something we all wish we could flip around and use it to give wisdom for planning. I run bereavement support groups, and one of the things I often say to people is that nothing will take away the sting of the loss, but time softens it, and the beauty that is in the memories is forever. I suspect you're nearing the stage that the bitter is nearly gone and the sweet remains, along with the what-ifs. Enjoy the memory of good times. That is what sustains us.

Suck in some of that salt air for me! I can almost smell it ....